Energy Output: How many fucks do I honestly have to give?

Dear CatHeart Know Thyself and Trust Collaborative Piece with a personalized  Lilith by MoDemeter  & Momma Hecate and her Hound by the Talented Beanface Bean aka The Kiddo.

Dear CatHeart Know Thyself and Trust
Collaborative Piece with a personalized Lilith by MoDemeter & Momma Hecate and her Hound by the Talented Beanface Bean aka The Kiddo.

Since living in a chronically ill body that is badassing its way to a new healthy... I have learned a few things about energy exchange in situational dynamics and the need for strong discernment and boundaries for optional functionality of my body to be maintained.

I call it spoonie math... I am sure I am not the first to call it this but its my guiding equation on where I can optimally use my varying energy output. (What are you going on about, Cat-brain? Spoon Theory)
 
I mean it's worth it because my quality of life/ health meter is going up... but I ALL-WAYS have to be super discerning on where I give my fucks. As an EMPATH, I Feel All The Things... I want to heal the world... Right all the wrongs... Fix everything.... However as a spoonie I must pick what/where/how I can manage to support myself/ my daughter/ my community and the causes I advocate for. But as I like to paraphrase from the airplane boarding advice... "Put your own mask on first Momma."
In doing this spoonie math... I am able to leave my house more often and have been able to build and maintain a supportive community structure for myself and Bean. I have witnessed how being involved in multiple communities has helped both of us level up and learn new skills and see the world in new ways. Bean is learning and thriving and I am so greatfull. I see the value in the progress I have been able to make with this Badass old bag of bones and skin.
Yet I must always keep in mind that Mast Cell issues are based on chronic inflammation of tissues and organs*. We know that chronic inflammation is caused by stress and toxicity. We know that stress is literally a killer. I know that when my stress is bad my body gets inflamed, shuts down, stops eating and does a plethora of other crazy things. So this means I must keep going forward in a good way where I have the energy to continue making a healthy life for myself and my child.

Only by learning to see my own worth and cutting out unhealthy patterns/ toxic dynamics/ situations/ food/ people and claiming radical authenticity and forward focus on well being for myself and Bean have I really seen progress in my health and personal situations.

In this way I am able to find a good path forward. In this way I am able to do more than I ever thought possible.

Peace and Blessings on your journey to your own optimal energy output.
Cat AKA Hecate's Daughter

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Manifesting as skin (Multiple full body staph infections and mast cell degranulation), lung (childhood chronic bronchial asthma and more recently lung mould poisoning), and stomach issues (stomach ulcers)... and was/has been/ is being/ repaired over time by knowing myself and building and maintaining strong boundaries to maintain healthy forward focus.

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