Love = Grief = Love

Love = Grief = Love

To love something, is to grieve when it is gone.

Just because someone died, it does not mean that we can suddenly stop the flow of love to that person, nor do I feel it is healthy to do so.

However the place that the love goes becomes intangible. Your love is there but there is also the ‘space’ where the loved one was. We no longer get the feedback that we did… there are no hugs/ smiles/ tenderness to show that the loved one, loves back. We are sending out a call of love and it is not being echoed back, at least not in the old familiar ways. 

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Empathy and Suicidal Thoughts

Empathy and Suicidal Thoughts

As psychopomp and an empath, I frequently process/ feel/ experience emotions that are not mine.

In high school it was overwhelming. I was just coming into all this new energetic awareness and feeling quite crazy because at that time I still had no context for my psychopomp experiences. High school was a gold mine for ALL.THE.FEELINGS. Plus who honestly doesn’t feel like they are a giant freak and totally alone in that mob of teenage angst and hormone stuff.

In my particular case add in a mom in the psychiatric ward (who blamed me for her mental illness and the outcome of her life choices), and alcoholic raging father (who was either absent or totally inappropriate and abusive in his interactions with me). Add in an unusual spiritual calling that would not stop banging around in my head… the loneliness at times was almost suffocating, like drowning in a sea of people.

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